OH, THE LESSONS WE LEARN FROM JUST LIVING LIFE

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Oh, how I would like to write about this wonderful experience or that awesome one.  But, instead I’m going to write about how two days last week just when I thought that life couldn’t be any better the bottom sort of fell out.  My Gosh, life is pretty amazing.

The first day, all was going along merrily.  I was working on my post, “The Journey Of My Vintage Navajo Necklace Takes Me To Old Mesilla”.  Then all of a sudden my internet connection went dead.  I spent over an hour trying to figure out what was wrong with my computer when I finally gave up.  I don’t know why, but, when there is something wrong with my internet connection I always go into “fix-it” mode with my computer.  I usually go into this “fix-it” mode because invariably the problem is with a glitch in my computer.  So, of course this time I figured the problem was going to be computer related.  Nope, I was completely off base.  Everything that I tried to “fix” on my computer did not fix the problem.  Try as I might I just could not get a solid connection to the internet.  I finally gave up and shut down my computer and then I found out that it was not my computer that was having problems it was the ISP (internet service provider) that was offline.  At that point there was nothing I COULD do.

When it is my computer that is having the problem even with my limited technology ability I can usually figure out the problem and correct it so that I can continue on my computing way.  Only this time I wasn’t able to fix the problem, especially when I finally discovered the reason I was sans internet was due to the ISP being down.  The problem was completely out of my control and hands.  So, I had to resign myself to spending the rest of my afternoon without being able to do anything online.  At first, I was frustrated then as I realized that my being frustrated would not change the situation I R-E-L-A-X-E-D.  I gave over to the higher power.  I surrendered, relaxed, breathed deeply and had a very enjoyable and stress free rest of the afternoon.

That night as I looked back on my day it became very clear to me that if I had let my frustration about losing the internet run me I would have been miserable the rest of the day.  It also became very clear that I had lived an example of letting go and letting be and letting God.  I smiled as I drifted off to sleep.  For, just a silly experience of losing my internet became truly a further great eye-opening and heart-opening education for me in the greater understanding of surrendering and letting go.

The next opportunity I had in this letting go process was just a few days later when I walked into the kitchen and there on the floor was a puddle of water.  At first I thought one of the cats had peed on the floor.  I know the cats would not do that but that was the only explanation that made sense to me until something told me to investigate further.  No, it wasn’t because a kitty cat peed it was because the dishwasher had peed.  The dishwasher was leaking water all over the kitchen floor and the water was running into the family room like a rushing river.  Needless to say I sprung into action.  I grabbed paper towels to sop up the rushing water and to make a dam against the onslaught of the rushing dishwasher river.  (tile floors instead of carpet is definitely a lifesaver.)  With a paper towel dam in place I quickly dashed to the linen closet and grabbed big thick towels to take care of the standing water.

It was a good idea I got the thick big towels because the problem was not just a little leak.  Apparently, the water was not draining from the bottom of the dishwasher and it was seeping out through the dishwasher door.  I was happy I had figured out where the water was coming from.  The river on the kitchen and family room floor was sopped up by the towels and now I could turn my attention to bailing out the inside of the dishwasher.  As I was bailing it occurred to me the dishwasher had not been run for several days and the last time it was run it worked fine.

I first discovered the leak on the floor around 9:30 in the morning and by the time I sopped up the rushing river on the floor and bailed out the dishwasher it was close to noon.  But, I was happy because the water was gone.  Or so I thought.   Within an hour there was another river of rushing water on the floor and the water culprit was dripping as fast as it could from the unhappy dishwasher.  I had been smart and left dams of towels on the floor just “in case” the water came back.  I opened the dishwasher door and once again there was standing water inside.  I again sopped up the water from the kitchen and family room floors and bailed out the dishwasher.  By now it was past 3:00 in the afternoon.  I had spent almost my entire day wrestling with this leaking water problem that was continually coming back.  I realized I could sop up and bail but that was not going to stop the leaking problem.  I now called for help and by 5:00 the problem was stopped.

Ok, the leaking water problem was solved but, my entire day and especially my afternoon time I spend writing was gone.  My day had turned upside down.  As I was sopping up the river of leaking water earlier in the morning I said to myself “This is what happens in life.”  Yep, life is full of these little surprises.  You wake up thinking all is going ok and then, out of the blue (astrologically speaking this was definitely a Uranus happening moment.) a river of leaking water happens and the next thing you know is your whole day disappears from you as you sop up water and bail.  All I could do was laugh at the situation.  So, I laughed in between sopping, bailing and thinking about how this is what happens in life.  Yep, laughing certainly helped me to not go into frustration mode.  Laughing also helped me to realize this was yet another example of me needing to surrender. Because, once again, everything that happened was not as I had planned for my day.  After I took care of everything I could at last sit down and I treated myself to some yummy chocolate.  Ahhh!  Everything was now better.

There is nothing better than letting go and letting God and of course, not to mention, celebrating with yummy chocolate how I managed a chaotic day.

These two unexpected experiences have set the tone for me of relaxing into a stress free existence at least for now anyway and until the next “life happens” event comes along.

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TITLES CREATE THE EXPERIENCE

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When I write a post I find myself writing the title first.  I then write to the title.  What I mean is that my words that I write seem to follow the meaning of the title.  These words just sort of come tumbling out of my mind or is it they come tumbling out of my thoughts.  I just had a quick discussion with myself about it’s my mind no it’s my thoughts.  I know! It is both.  The words come tumbling out of both my thoughts and my mind.

This is what I call a female/male moment.  What I mean is that my female side stepped up and said my words come tumbling out of my thoughts and my male side stepped up to say that my words come tumbling out of my mind.  Then, in order to actually continue writing without any interruption my female side and my male side worked in partnership and collaborated on the words to be written down.  What an amazing experience.

In astrological terms my Venus, the feminine part of my personality that connects with my inner knowing and intuition, is the guardian of my thoughts and guides me as the words tumble forth.  My Mars, the masculine part of my personality molds my mind and hands my words to me to use as I see fit.  It is my Mercury, the planet of communication, that is the recipient of the words from my thoughts and my mind.  Mercury is the designer of how I write what my feminine and masculine collaborated on.

Now how does this relate to the title of this post?  Well, I did say my words follow the meaning of the title. This could be a stretch, but, you can’t get more experiential than what I wrote about in this blog.

Where The Heck Did That Come From?

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Today is the first of July and this is only my second post.  Hmmmm!  Too bad the date isn’t the second of July, then my second post would be on the second.  Sorry, numbers and their significance hit me like this.  That said, I will now get back to my original reason for writing this post.

This is the month in the USA we celebrate our Independence.  This Friday, July 4th, is our big day of picnics and fireworks.  I have always treasured this day of celebration because of everything I learned in school about how our forefathers fought for our country’s independence.  Even though I realize that not everything I was taught in school about our forefathers may not be the actual truth I still get goose bumps knowing that in some way our country does stand for liberty and justice for all.  At least some of our forefathers gave their lives fighting for this liberty and for that I am eternally grateful.  At this point I will say that as we all eat lots of food at our picnics, enjoy the parades and thrill at the fireworks I hope that we all in the USA can think about ways we in our country can get back the strong purpose our forefathers fought for.  Precisely what I mean is that we in our country need to make sure that there is liberty and justice for everyone who lives in the USA.  This feeling of equality for some and not for everyone really has to stop.  That is all I will say about this at this time, but, I will share my thoughts on this further in a future post.  Right now I am going to return to the real reason for this post.

Yesterday I wrote about the blessings and challenges that come my way as I walk my daily path.  Well, little did I know that after writing my post I would face a great challenge.  The challenge that came out of the blue was a test for my passion about independence.  As I sit here today writing about it I have a greater sense of perspective of the situation that threw itself at me.

I like to walk, in fact, I am a pedestrian.  I gave up my car almost three years ago because of my concern for the environment.  I do take the bus, but, most of the time my main mode of transportation is walking.  in fact, I love to walk.  Walking is not only great exercise for the body it is great exercise for the mind.  I do most of my thinking things through as I walk.  I also can commune with nature more easily when I am travelling by my feet.  The plants, flowers, birds and insects I see every day are amazing additions to my daily journey.  The palette of colors I see thrill my senses.

Yesterday was no exception.  As I walked to the store I was thinking about my blog and what I will be writing about.  Out of the blue a car drove by me and the man driving the car called out to me and started to talk to me lewdly.  In fact, he made a very indecent proposal.  I immediately yelled at him to leave me alone and to get the H— away from me or I would spray him with mace and call the cops.  He immediately drove away, but, not before I got his license # and the make of the car.  I’m not stupid.  I know that a woman walking alone can be a target and that is why I carry mace.  No, I am not stupid, I am however very independent and I like my freedom.  I do not want to feel that I can’t walk around Las Cruces because some jerk decides I am a perfect target for harassing.  I as a human being have the right to my freedom and I as a woman who walks as my mode of transportation has the right to walk free of any harassment.  In honor of my freedom I will be filing a police report against this jerk (and yes, he is a jerk because of his stupid actions against me and any other woman he harasses). I am filing this police report on behalf of my freedom and the freedom of all oppressed people.  Yes, I am passionate about this!!!!!

Yes, I am passionate about what happened to me yesterday and I am very emotional as well.  I feel like I am going to cry about this for hours and I probably will.  I also want to address the “Where The Heck Did That Come From?” feeling.  In astrology this is an out of the blue happening that is typical of Uranus, the planet that shoves us un-expectantly, found in the sign of Aries, rushing us headlong into things and situations in a fiery way of impulsive actions.  Ok, my experience yesterday is a prime example of Uranus in Aries action and guess what?  My filing a police report against this jerk is just the right Uranus in Aries action in return.  Does that make me feel any better about all of this?  Not really, but, it certainly helps me gain back my sense of freedom and hopefully by tomorrow I will be feeling better about that.  For now I just want to take a deep breath, feel my freedom and go cry my eyes out.

HERE I GO!

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HERE I GO!

This is my first musing.  10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 Blast off!

Today is June 30, 2014.  Tomorrow starts July and we are definitely heading further into summer, in fact, we really only have the new month of July and then August.  Is it just me or does it seem like summertime is virtually flying by? Sometimes I wonder where the time goes.  Especially when I see the months filling up fast.  Other times it seems as though the days just dra-a-a-a-a-g on.  I think this dragging on experience hits me most when I am wide awake and aware that I am on my Spiritual path.  Now don’t get me wrong, I am thrilled to be on my Spiritual path.  I find blessings and challenges as I walk this path.  The blessings are grrrr-e-a-t!!!!  They help make my journey smooth. It’s the challenges that come along with the blessings that cause me to stumble and sometimes cause me to lose sight of my path.  With the blessings my journey seems quick and effortless and I get how important it is to daily walk my Spiritual path.  With the challenges that come my way, Oh My Gosh, I find myself screaming “why is my path so bleaping long and taking me forever to walk it?”

In Astrology one way of looking at this is that Saturn, the planet that depicts Father Time who moves very slowly, is in the sign of Scorpio, where we dig up the hidden from the depths and bring the nuggets of truth out into the light of day.  I guess that means that my nuggets of truth or my challenges along my path keep getting dug up and fall in front of Father Time which just trips him and slows him down that much more.